Here we go again.....

I don't even know where to start....Finally after years and years of looking, I met someone amazing.  We had a great month together.  But then it ended.  I'm completely heart broken.  I know it was only a month, but it seemed like much, much longer.  And I am pretty much devastated. I don't know how else to explain it.  My heart physically hurts.  We both have great respect and admiration for one another, but for very stupid reasons, it did not work.

So....now I'm on the prowl.  I have to get this guy out of my head.  I can't focus on anything and I find it difficult to sleep.  I need to move on, so begins my serial dating.  Someone suggested that I start blogging about it again.

I've re-posted my profile on match.com and am lining up dates left and right.  This should be interesting.  I've even made a spreadsheet to keep them all straight....I've named the spreadsheet "Phuktards"....simply because most men are just that.

I had my first date last night.  This guy has been "winking" at me for what seems like years.  Typically, I delete the email and move on.  However, this time, I thought "why not give this guy a chance? Yes, he has an over-sized forehead, but maybe he's better in person.  The date was at Fox & Hound, and at first, I thought "well, maybe".  But soon changed my mind.  His facial features were very small, which I think is what makes his forehead look so big.  He was perfectly nice, but......it just wasn't going to happen.  We ordered a beer, but I was HUNGRY after having run home from the gym, showering and getting ready.  I just didn't have any time to eat.  It didn't seem like he was interested in eating and I later learned that he usually eats late at night.  Well, this girl doesn't!  So I ordered some (nasty) food and chatted.  I found my mind wandering - which is a bad sign.  If I can't focus on what you are saying, that's pretty bad.  By the way, our server sucked.  We could have gotten out of there a lot faster if she had been better.  We each had one more beverage while we ate, and then he immediately asked for the check....which made me happy.  He walked me to my car, which was awkward.  We had a weird hug and a "ok, talk to you later"...we both knew that we never would.

Tonight:  Date with Justin at Soul

.....more to come