He's Back......

So, a lot can happen in just a couple of days.  Actually, a couple of hours....which I already figured out two weeks ago....but here's a continuation to the story...

After two weeks of texting, it happened.  Yes, I admit, I told him I wanted him back.  I've never done anything like that before.  Ever.  I fought tooth and nail for what I wanted, needed - but never thought things would change....but they did...

All the details don't need to be spilled here on this post.  But I am happy.  Happy and scared.  I don't want to get hurt again.  And I definitely have a lot of questions.  However, the bottom line is that we are together again.

It's a Wrap

I think I'm finished dating for a while.  I just don't think I can do it anymore.

Good Friends....

Still waiting for Geoff to get out of my heart.  It seems like the only thing I think about when I'm on other dates is wishing that I was with him instead.  I've got to shake this.  Luckily, I have two friends that actually got me out of my house today.  We went shopping.  I spent too much money, but that's ok.  Plus, Sarah got an amazing outfit for her first date tomorrow with a very promising guy. :-)

Have fun Sarah!  Can't wait to hear about it!

Hot, Miserable Charlotte....and a Date

Friday Date:  Alan

So nice, but holy crap he can talk!!  I’ve NEVER been on a date where the guy talks that much!!  Super nice though.  However, I do have a problem with you showing up thirty pounds heavier than your pic!!  Yes, this is a problem.  You are lying to me.  Just like last night when I received an email from someone who said he was forty on his actual profile stats, however, when you actually READ his profile, he says he’s really 10 years older!!!  WTF??  Don’t lie to me!!

Anyway…back to Alan.  We went to Brazwell’s on Montford.  It was HOT in there!  And we all know that Wendy does not do well with heat.  Originally, Alan invited me to a baseball game for our first date.  I really wasn’t ready to spend the evening with a guy I’ve never met stuck in a HOT baseball stadium.  It did not sound appealing.  So, I suggested drinks after work.  However, he was still going to the game and I had plans too.  This was a great out if I needed it.  I really liked him as a person.  Nice guy.  But I don’t see myself dating him.  He asked me out again before we even got the check.  How do you get out of that?  So, I didn’t really commit, but suggested the possibility.  He texted me last night (Saturday) to ask me out for Monday evening.  Now I have to tell him that I see him more as a friend.  I hate doing that, but it’s just what I feel.

Wonder what's in store for this week??

And the Search Continues....with a Side of Porkbelly Tacos....

Wednesday night.  8:00.  Soul Gastrolounge.  Porkbelly tacos and sushi.  Holy crap that was some good food.  The guy:  Justin.  Not much to look at  (ok, he was average), horrible posture, 5' 9", but seems much shorter because I was wearing heels.  But we got along well and the conversation flowed.  He was in a sling due to recent shoulder surgery.

The bar/restaurant was hopping.  It was a Wednesday!  What are all you people doing here???  So, we had to wait for a table.  While we did so, we went downstairs to a really cool art gallery/bar that I'd never heard of.  When we went back upstairs, our table was just about ready and were seated pretty quickly.  Like I said before, the food was great and they had Two Hearted.  Yeah - I'll be going back there for sure.

When we were finished, I was 10:30 - way past my bedtime.  But, stupid me agreed to go over to Common Market for a beverage.  Stupid, stupid, stupid.  This lead to a make out session in the car.  I was out was too late - especially for a first date.  The next morning I couldn't get out of bed for work on time!  Ridiculous.  I did make it in to work only shortly after I really should have been there, but I was exhausted - and I had a date that night too.  Thursday:  Chris.  Reservations for restaurant week at Fiamma - probably the best Italian restaurant in town.

Around noon Chris sent me a text saying that he was really sorry, but that he had to cancel.  He is an attorney and his team had a deadline for a big case on Thursday and they were all going to have to work really late.  Yep - I think I get cancelled on more than I actually go on dates.  This is why you have to set so many up......

I told him it was ok and that I'd cancel our reservation.  He wants to reschedule for next week, but didn't tell me a day.  So, we'll see.

Tonight (Friday) on tap:  Crap, I can't remember his name.  Oh yeah - Alan.  We are having drinks right after work at Braswell's.

I'm continually updating my Phuktard spreadsheet with details.  Someday, maybe I'll attach it to a post.  We'll see.....

Here we go again.....

I don't even know where to start....Finally after years and years of looking, I met someone amazing.  We had a great month together.  But then it ended.  I'm completely heart broken.  I know it was only a month, but it seemed like much, much longer.  And I am pretty much devastated. I don't know how else to explain it.  My heart physically hurts.  We both have great respect and admiration for one another, but for very stupid reasons, it did not work.

So....now I'm on the prowl.  I have to get this guy out of my head.  I can't focus on anything and I find it difficult to sleep.  I need to move on, so begins my serial dating.  Someone suggested that I start blogging about it again.

I've re-posted my profile on match.com and am lining up dates left and right.  This should be interesting.  I've even made a spreadsheet to keep them all straight....I've named the spreadsheet "Phuktards"....simply because most men are just that.

I had my first date last night.  This guy has been "winking" at me for what seems like years.  Typically, I delete the email and move on.  However, this time, I thought "why not give this guy a chance? Yes, he has an over-sized forehead, but maybe he's better in person.  The date was at Fox & Hound, and at first, I thought "well, maybe".  But soon changed my mind.  His facial features were very small, which I think is what makes his forehead look so big.  He was perfectly nice, but......it just wasn't going to happen.  We ordered a beer, but I was HUNGRY after having run home from the gym, showering and getting ready.  I just didn't have any time to eat.  It didn't seem like he was interested in eating and I later learned that he usually eats late at night.  Well, this girl doesn't!  So I ordered some (nasty) food and chatted.  I found my mind wandering - which is a bad sign.  If I can't focus on what you are saying, that's pretty bad.  By the way, our server sucked.  We could have gotten out of there a lot faster if she had been better.  We each had one more beverage while we ate, and then he immediately asked for the check....which made me happy.  He walked me to my car, which was awkward.  We had a weird hug and a "ok, talk to you later"...we both knew that we never would.

Tonight:  Date with Justin at Soul

.....more to come